John 21.1-19
Simon Peter went aboard and hauled the net ashore, full of
large fish, a hundred and fifty-three of them; and though there were so many,
the net was not torn.
153 fish. It’s one of those details in the Bible that makes
you sit up and take notice. What is so special about 153? It’s not an
approximation. It’s not a round number. But it hardly seems likely, either,
that anyone would have sat down on the beach and counted, and then felt it
important enough to keep a record of exactly how large this catch was. Yet the
Bible is specific. 153 fish.
John echoes that vision in this story. Here is God’s
kingdom, coming to birth among you, he says, a vision of abundance and plenty,
a kingdom which is for all. That fits
with everything else we see Jesus saying.
The early church struggled with that, just as we still do.
We set limits. We make conditions. For the early church the tensions were
between Jews and Gentiles. For us they may be different. We might find
ourselves, consciously or unconsciously, saying “you’re welcome if you think
like I do, if you worship like I do, if you behave in ways that I approve of,
if you are prepared to fit in to the way we already do things, if you go
through the right rituals.”
But I don’t think this is just about the boundaries we set between
people – those who are in and those who are out. It’s also about the inner
boundaries we create as we try to keep parts of ourselves from God. The
disciples in this story – and Simon Peter especially – knew that they had
failed Jesus when they ran from him as he was arrested. They couldn’t turn the
clock back. That failure is a part of them, a part of their life stories. What
are they going to do with it? They go fishing to remind themselves that this,
at least, they can do – to try to kid themselves that that bad stuff never
really happened. But even in this, they fail. There are no fish - until Jesus
comes along. It is only then that they
get the point. They are accepted as they are, in their wholeness, good and bad.
I think that is a message most people need to hear. We often
expend a great deal of effort covering up those things we are ashamed of in our
lives. We try to look good, but in order to do so we have to cut off bits of
ourselves, leave them at the door of the church. But God wants us to come to
him as whole people. If we don’t come like that, we might as well not come at
all.
There were 153 fish in the net, and the net was not
torn, says the Gospel. How far do we think we can stretch the love of
God before it breaks? Are we anxiously trying to protect him from being
overloaded, cautiously sidling up to him, and trying to stop others doing
things which we fear will offend his delicate sensibilities. It sounds daft
when I put it like that, but I think that is sometimes what we are trying to
do. Of course, it is daft. God can cope with us, and with others. The
net of his love, the net of his kingdom is big and strong enough for the whole
catch, for whatever we put into it. It won’t break. Whoever we are, and
whatever we’ve done, he can hold us securely.
Amen
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